The smart thing would have probably been not to point out how well I was feeling last week, because things fell apart less than 12 hours later. I got disheartening news that I'm still trying to deal with, and things spiraled a bit after that.
When I know my daughter can't hear, I cry a little. I try to think of anyone I know who'd maybe have input on my situation, but I'm drawing blanks.
To be clear:
- I do not have cancer
- I am not HIV+
I have a support system, but the last thing I want to hear is "I'm here for you" from someone who doesn't know anything about how I currently feel. I also hope that if anyone actually reads this they'll understand that I'm probably making more of this than its worth.
But what I do know is that this likely isn't temporary. And I'm scared to death.
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